July222014
12PM

It begins!

Compulsively checking my e-mail every 30 minutes to see if anyone has contacted me regarding employment.

Now?

…how bout now?

July212014

Congrats, Stephanie. You’re doing it.

Patting myself on the back because who else would? I cracked a tallboy and cheers-ed myself. I rocked it today.

Interviewed at a library in New Mexico, went pretty well! I’m interested to see how this pans out. The interview, however awkward due to conference call logistics, wasn’t the most difficult, and I felt like I’ve been practicing enough to fully and confidently answer their questions without prattling on. I hope they liked me.

Submitted another application for FT Librarian I; this was a laborious task - 6 essay questions asking me for one page responses when entire dissertations could be written on this stuff (ie: “describe the issues you encounter with patrons of diverse backgrounds and poverty” WTF). It took me three effing weeks to make something resembling coherent answers to these questions. Reminded me of school. But I still did it! I threw my name in the ring and its awesome.

I’m celebrating myself today. This kind of stuff doesn’t seem to matter to anyone else. But I have goals in mind and nothing is going to stop me from achieving them.

July192014

Let’s go to New Mexico; let’s forget the rest of the world.

The highway for days, the sun in your face, I think they go together too perfectly.

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July162014
8PM

I cant

believe I’m in the same fucking boat I said I’d never get back into again.

July152014

Fuck!

Hate it!

(Source: Spotify)

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July122014

I haven’t

tumblr-ed in a while mostly because I don’t have anything positive to say these days.

Still struggling along doing the 2 PT job dance and attempting to maintain a creative will to live. And also eat.

J and I are adjusting to living together, and we’re both struggling along together, so that makes things a little more bearable at the end of the day. He’s so patient with me and my constant weepy garbage. When I feel like I’m about to lose my mind over trivial work bullshit, he reminds me that it’s all transistory and it won’t last any longer than it has to. We motivate and support each other through it, and I’m sure I’m better off with him than I was without him. I’m not sure how great a help I am to him at this point, but I’ll figure it out.

We are in the initiating stages of a musical project, and that gives me another thing to get excited (and then worry constantly) about. I need to be creating in some capacity or I might die. But then again, my anxiety surrounding my creativity might kill me first.

Survival is the name of the game.

June272014

Tables turned, lessons learned

you get burned for playin’ by the rules

(O brother notanothermothafucka gotta go now)

June122014
“Read what you want.”

As librarians, we will never judge you.  We would never judge you.  We sideeye those who do.

In response to THAT article, and in solidarity with the sentiments over here (at the New Republic) and over here (with NSFW language, a bit, at Jezebel).

(via healthscireflib)

I don’t give a shit what you read!  Erotica?  I’ll get it for you.  Obscure manga?  OCLC to the rescue.  That one book with the blue cover and the thingy?  I will go down a black research hole for you and then I will put a hold on it.

LIBRARIANS HAVE NO SHAME.  WE DON’T CARE.

(via limberlibrarian)

(Source: brkteenlib, via expatlibrarian)

1PM

Even though…

I usually stay away from stuff like this, I’ve picked up a copy of Lean In: For Graduates by Sheryl Sandberg from my library.

What got me was the subtitle says “With new chapters by Experts, including Find Your First Job, Negotiate Your Salary, and Own Who You Are”. I actually laughed out loud in the stacks when I read “Negotiate Your Salary”.  Me? With a MLS? Negotiate a salary when I can only get interviews for min wage jobs? Please. This better be hilarious.

I’m about 3 chapters in and so far, I’m a little annoyed. It must be nice to write a book after you’ve graduated from Harvard and work for Facebook. What I really want to read is a book about someone like me: an AVERAGE person who went to a State School with very few scholarships, has overwhelming student loan debt, and can’t even think about negotiating a salary when all I can do is scramble between two underpaid part time jobs. I was told education was my only chance at survival and in the end, I’ve just been set back a few years and quite a few dollars thanks to all the hard work I put in.

But I like the fact that she points out patterns I already noticed in my short professional life. Men are expected to negotiate and defend, but when women do it’s against our prescribed societal behavior code. MEN STILL GET PAID MORE THAN WOMEN ON THE DOLLAR. Hey, wtf, its 2014! According to this book, in 2010, women still only make 77 cents for every dollar men make. Why are we so concerned with raising the minimum wage if not everyone benefits from it? And something I absolutely had to write down: “Men are often promoted based on potential, while women are promoted based on past performance.” I knew it! But she put it into the words I couldn’t quite pin down.

She keep using this tag line like “What would you do if you weren’t afraid?”. Well, shit, I’d probably be the one to write that book about average Jane, but I’m not a chief executive officer of anything. No one would want to read about about someone who doesn’t even achieve success. I haven’t even achieved a FT job.

Fuck. Damn books making me think and then making me angry that I feel so helpless about fixing what makes me angry. It’s going to be a long day.

June112014
lovelyarc:

THE BOOK OF JOSHUA IS NOW AVAILABLE
*You may use coupon code “BLOOD” for $5 off if you order it in the month of June. 
I am very proud to officially announce that my fourth book of poems, The Book of Joshua, will be officially published by Black Ocean on July 15, and is now available for pre-order from Black Ocean. TBOJ, written around the same time as Fjords vol.1, is a singular narrative bildungsroman told in a series of prose poems that span an entirety of a life (1977-2044) told from the perspective of the unnamed main character. 
The narrative is divided into three sections: Earth, Mars, and Blood. The long poem, Blood, was recorded with Kyle Morton, of Typhoon, and can be listened to here at Black Cake Records. 
The Book of Joshua is my fourth book to be published by Black Ocean, an independent press of which I could not be more proud. This is a cloth-bound hard-cover edition, pearl foil stamp, with a light blue dyed trim. The cover, as with the first three books, The Man Suit, Scary No Scary, and Fjords vol. 1, is designed by Denny Schmickle. 
This summer I will be on a reading tour to support TBOJ with Joshua Marie Wilkinson, Mathias Svalina, and a number of other poets at various points along the way. Below is a list of the places and dates. There are more details in the Upcoming Readings section of this site, and I’ll be updating these details there as I go. 
7/2. Portland, OR.
7/6. Seattle, WA. 
7/8. Missoula, MT. 
7/10. Salt Lake City, UT. 
7/11. Denver, CO. 
7/12. Lincoln, NE. 
7/13. Council Bluffs, IA.
7/14. Iowa City, IA.
7/17. Davenport, IA. 
7/19. Chicago, IL
7/20. Chicago, IL 
7/21. Pittsburgh, PA. 
7/23. Northampton, MA. 
7/24 Boston, MA. 
7/26. Newport, RI. 
7/27. Governor’s Island, NY. 
7/28. Brooklyn, NY. 
7/29. Philadelphia, PA. 
7/30. Washington DC. 
7/31. Richmond, VA. 
8/1. Raleigh, NC. 
8/2. Columbia, SC. 
8/3. Tallahasse, FL. 
8/4. New Orleans, LA. 
8/5. Baton Rouge, LA. 
8/6. Austin, TX. 
8/7. Marfa, TX. 
8/9. Las Cruces, NM.
8/11. Tucson, AZ. 
8/13. Tucson, AZ
8/14. Los Angeles, CA
8/15. San Francisco, CA


So excited he’s coming to CB! One of my favorite poets in my town! That never happens!

lovelyarc:

THE BOOK OF JOSHUA IS NOW AVAILABLE

*You may use coupon code “BLOOD” for $5 off if you order it in the month of June. 

I am very proud to officially announce that my fourth book of poems, The Book of Joshua, will be officially published by Black Ocean on July 15, and is now available for pre-order from Black Ocean. TBOJ, written around the same time as Fjords vol.1, is a singular narrative bildungsroman told in a series of prose poems that span an entirety of a life (1977-2044) told from the perspective of the unnamed main character. 

The narrative is divided into three sections: Earth, Mars, and Blood. The long poem, Blood, was recorded with Kyle Morton, of Typhoon, and can be listened to here at Black Cake Records

The Book of Joshua is my fourth book to be published by Black Ocean, an independent press of which I could not be more proud. This is a cloth-bound hard-cover edition, pearl foil stamp, with a light blue dyed trim. The cover, as with the first three books, The Man Suit, Scary No Scary, and Fjords vol. 1, is designed by Denny Schmickle

This summer I will be on a reading tour to support TBOJ with Joshua Marie Wilkinson, Mathias Svalina, and a number of other poets at various points along the way. Below is a list of the places and dates. There are more details in the Upcoming Readings section of this site, and I’ll be updating these details there as I go. 

7/2. Portland, OR.

7/6. Seattle, WA. 

7/8. Missoula, MT. 

7/10. Salt Lake City, UT. 

7/11. Denver, CO. 

7/12. Lincoln, NE. 

7/13. Council Bluffs, IA.

7/14. Iowa City, IA.

7/17. Davenport, IA. 

7/19. Chicago, IL

7/20. Chicago, IL 

7/21. Pittsburgh, PA. 

7/23. Northampton, MA. 

7/24 Boston, MA. 

7/26. Newport, RI. 

7/27. Governor’s Island, NY. 

7/28. Brooklyn, NY. 

7/29. Philadelphia, PA. 

7/30. Washington DC. 

7/31. Richmond, VA. 

8/1. Raleigh, NC. 

8/2. Columbia, SC. 

8/3. Tallahasse, FL. 

8/4. New Orleans, LA. 

8/5. Baton Rouge, LA. 

8/6. Austin, TX. 

8/7. Marfa, TX. 

8/9. Las Cruces, NM.

8/11. Tucson, AZ. 

8/13. Tucson, AZ

8/14. Los Angeles, CA

8/15. San Francisco, CA

So excited he’s coming to CB! One of my favorite poets in my town! That never happens!

June62014

I can’t sleep at night and I feel like shit.

That’s right.

(Source: Spotify)

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June42014

Returned

to the NoCoast just in time for some tornadoes!

Portland was pretty sweet, as you’ll see from the many reblogs. I don’t have a smart-thing so I just rely on birdshuus to document everything.

Back to the grind, yuck!

12PM
Yeh, mebz!

Yeh, mebz!

(Source: birdshuus)

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